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Book Review – Nemesis by Philip Roth

When I saw a copy of this at the library, I was pretty excited. Originally, I had planned to review a digital ARC of this through NetGalley, but they pulled it from their list for whatever reason.

Nemesis, written by the same icon of Jewish-American literature who brought you Portnoy’s Complaint, examines the Jewish-American experience during the 1944 polio epidemic. We see the disease spread from urban New Jersey to rural Pennsylvania, ravaging in particular the Weequahic section of Newark.

Bucky Cantor, playground coordinator and athlete extraordinaire, spends much of this book running from conflict. He declines to join his friends in military enlistment, he runs from Weequahic when the polio epidemic intensifies, and he runs from Marcia, his fiancée, when he falls victim to polio himself. He seems to be, on many levels, impotent; he tells us so himself.

But is he really? Native American symbols abound in the latter half of this book, when the Poconos camp where he works engages in some Native American roleplaying. When polio strikes the camp, he believes himself to be the “invisible arrow” (a term borrowed from Native American epidemiology) that brought the illness to the camp from the city. Although doctors try to reassure him that the odds of this are slight, Bucky revels in “self-castigation,” and Marcia later calls him out on this inherent masochism. The “arrow” imagery insinuates potency, virility. It is all but phallic. So while Bucky is powerless to navigate his own relationships and quick to dodge potential conflict, perhaps the “invisible arrow” identity allows him to feel a certain measure of power. Perhaps it is not self-loathing, but self-indulgent.

Powerlessness is one of the prominent themes at work in this story. Parents withdraw their children from playgrounds and camps to protect them from polio. People yearn so deeply for a culprit, an epidemiological scapegoat they can identify and subsequently avoid, that they point fingers at restaurant hot dogs. Lawmakers consider quarantining entire communities to stop the spread the virus. People like Bucky flee the cities in hopes of avoiding infection. None of these measures proves to be particularly effective. No one can suppress the biological realities of polio.

Also of note is Bucky’s crisis of faith as the epidemic intensifies. He becomes something of an agnostic cliché, turning his anger on his god when polio hits close to home. His anger, his powerlessness, and a sense of self-blame more virulent than the polio itself ruin him. The disease ravages his body, but it is his mind that reduces him to the bitter cynic he becomes. Polio robs him of loved ones and of his once-athletic body, but he robs himself of a life with Marcia.

The book ends with a memory from Arnold Mesnikoff, the former student of Bucky who narrates parts of this story. Even after running into Bucky decades after the epidemic and witnessing his bitterness firsthand, he remembers him differently in the end. We are left not with the image of a crippled, impotent version Bucky, but a youthful, healthy one who could throw a javelin with expert precision. Bucky has no narrative control over this memory, so he cannot taint it with his self-loathing. So we remember Bucky as his students do: with fondness and admiration. The tragedy lies in what his life might have been if he had seen himself in this same light.

Book Review: Dirty Secret by Jessie Sholl

Dirty Secret - Jessie Sholl

Hoarding. A psychological phenomenon that has quickly become part of our cultural vocabulary. A mental illness that, if unchecked, can leave people homeless and friendless.

Unless you’ve had your head in the sand for the last two years, you’ve seen instances of this devastating disorder in the media. Both A&E and TLC air documentary-style reality shows featuring afflicted families, and various talk shows have devoted entire episodes to hoarding. However, as Jessie Sholl reveals in her memoir, Dirty Secret: A Daughter Comes Clean About Her Mother’s Compulsive Hoarding (Gallery Books, December 2010), this phenomenon is hardly a new one.

Books like Stuff (written by psychologists Randy Frost and Gail Steketee) examine the psychopathology of hoarding, drawing upon anecdotal material to illustrate its hallmark traits. Hoarding disorders can be slippery diagnostic eels, often comorbid with a host of other emotional disorders and untraceable to a single cause. They hit different people differently and for different reasons. Books like Sholl’s illuminate just how complex this illness can be.

What makes Dirty Secret so unique is its point of view. This is not the memoir of a hoarder, nor is it the clinical reflection of a hoarding specialist. It isn’t a book of tips for conquering hoarding behaviors or chronic disorganization. No, Dirty Secret tells us what it is like to be the loved one of a hoarder. The relationships between hoarders and their loved ones are often, for lack of a better word, messy. As Sholl tells us, hoarders are prone to lapses in decision-making and deficits in memory and spatial orientation. Sholl herself is the victim of poor decision-making: Her mother did not hold her until she was six months old because she was recovering from surgery; however, even after her recovery, the sight of her crying baby filled her with such crippling indecision that she often declined to hold her. She did not know how to react to her crying child then, and she does not know how to react to the gargantuan heaps of junk that threaten her well-being now.

Like a lot of hoarders, Jessie’s mother has always had big plans for her “stuff.” She collects items indiscriminately to give as gifts to loved ones. She has grandiose plans to get rich crafting cat beds. Despite having written down Jessie’s contact information several times, she must always ask for her address again when sending one of her “gifts.” And it is the gifts to Jessie that illuminate just how warped a hoarder’s mind can become. As a child, Jessie had a traumatic experience at a zoo with a snake. Her mother’s immediate response was to laugh while her child screamed. This is troubling enough. But over the years, she would collect toy snakes from various places and give them to Jessie as gag gifts, despite her daughter’s snake phobia. She persists in doing so even after being told to stop several times by an unnerved Jessie.

The thing is, her mother’s behaviors are so varied, ranging from confusion to bad decision-making to hoarding to obsessive compulsion to avoidance to delusions of grandeur (e.g., the cat beds), that it is hard to blame just the hoarding disorder. There appear to be a host of comorbid problems in play here. This, of course, makes it exceedingly difficult to treat hoarders like her and virtually impossible to cure them.

Jessie’s narrative reveals the frustration, fear, and despair associated with her mother’s hoarding. It also explores her struggle with RSI (repetitive stress injury), a disorder that made writing impossible for a long stretch.

Dirty Secret: A Daughter Comes Clean About Her Mother’s Compulsive Hoarding offers the American public a rare opportunity to experience hoarding from the point of view of a loved one. While the television documentaries give ample airtime to the loved ones, it isn’t until we read a memoir like this that we understand just how crippling this disorder can be. Long after the junk trucks leave with their spoils, hoarders and their family members must still dig out from under years of accumulated hurt and resentment. Lifelong behaviors and habits must change. Television viewers glean satisfaction from the before/after shots of these once uninhabitable homes, but they shouldn’t forget that, at this stage, the family’s work has only just begun.

[Disclaimer: I received an advance review copy of Dirty Secret from the author/publisher.]

Books Read in 2011

My bookshelves

  1. Blood and Chocolate - Annette Curtis Klause
  2. Deadly Little Lies - Laurie Faria Stolarz
  3. Dark Song - Gail Giles
  4. If I Stay - Gayle Forman
  5. Deadly Little Games - Laurie Faria Stolarz
  6. The Silver Kiss - Annette Curtis Klause
  7. From the Land of the Moon - Milena Agus
  8. The Devil and Miss Goody Two-Shoes - Charlotte Hughes (snark project)
  9. Pretty Little Liars - Sara Shepard
  10. Nemesis – Philip Roth
  11. Swoon - Nina Malkin
  12. Entice – Carrie Jones
  13. Kissed by an Angel - Elizabeth Chandler
  14. The Power of Love - Elizabeth Chandler
  15. Soulmates – Elizabeth Chandler
  16. If You Believe - Kristin Hannah (snark project)
  17. The Adoration of Jenna Fox - Mary E. Pearson
  18. Matched - Ally Condie
  19. A Treasure Worth Keeping - Kathryn Springer (snark project)
  20. The Lover’s Dictionary – David Levithan
  21. Torment - Lauren Kate
  22. After the Quake - Haruki Murakami
  23. The Summer I Turned Pretty - Jenny Han
  24. Willow - Julia Hoban
  25. Crescendo - Becca Fitzpatrick
  26. Elsewhere – Gabrielle Zevin
  27. The Color of Earth - Kim Dong Hwa
  28. A Cop’s Firsthand Account of Catching the Killer Who Terrorized a Community - Jeff Schober with Det. Dennis Delano
  29. Florida Icons - Roger Hammer (in-progress GPP manuscript, Summer 2011 release)
  30. No Buddy Left Behind - Terri Crisp and Cindy Hurn (in-progress Lyons Press manuscript, Fall 2011 release)
  31. Haunted Savannah – Georgia Byrd (in-progress GPP manuscript, Summer 2011 release)
  32. It’s Not Summer Without You - Jenny Han
  33. The Rogue and the Hellion - Connie Mason (snark project)
  34. RBBAIB (snark project)
  35. Prophet’s Daugher - Erin Prophet
  36. Across the Universe - Beth Revis
  37. Where She Went – Gayle Forman
  38. The Black Book - Orhan Pamuk
  39. Fury - Salman Rushdie
  40. Mercury - Hope Larson
  41. Temptation’s Darling - Joanna Lindsay (snark project)
  42. Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? - Philip K. Dick
  43. Sweet Valley Confidential – Francine Pascal
  44. Infinite Days - Rebecca Maizel
  45. Winter Longing - Tricia Mills
  46. Boston’s Freedom Trail - Cindi D. Pietrzyk
  47. Between Shades of Gray – Ruta Sepetys
  48. Trapped - Michael Northrop
  49. Two Is Enough - Laura S. Scott
  50. Class Matters - New York Times
  51. Scrawl - Mark Shulman
  52. Where the Truth Lies – Jessica Warman
  53. Bitter End - Jennifer Brown
  54. The Unidentified  – Rae Mariz
  55. Maybe This Time - Jennifer Crusie
  56. The Painted Veil - W. Somerset Maugham
  57. Butterfly Burning: A Novel – Yvonne Vera
  58. Bet Me - Jennifer Crusie
  59. Nightshade - Andrea Cremer
  60. Room - Emma Donoghue
  61. Charlie All Night - Jennifer Crusie
  62. We’ll Always Have Summer - Jenny Han
  63. Unlocked - Ryan G. Van Cleave
  64. Once - Morris Gleitzman
  65. Luka and the Fire of Life - Salman Rushdie
  66. Strange Bedpersons - Jennifer Crusie
  67. Welcome to Temptation - Jennifer Crusie
  68. Naamah’s Blessing - Jacqueline Carey
  69. I Am the Messenger - Markus Zusak
  70. The Baby Trap - Ellen Peck
  71. Dr. Dad - Judith Arnold (snark project)
  72. A Visit from the Goon Squad – Jennifer Egan
  73. Damned - Chuck Palahniuk
  74. Simply Irresistible – Jill Shalvis
  75. The Penelopiad - Margaret Atwood
  76. You Don’t Know Me - David Klass
  77. The Color of Water - Kim Dong Hwa
  78. The Color of Heaven - Kim Dong Hwa
  79. Nineteen Minutes - Jodi Picoult
  80. Possession - Elana Johnson
  81. Then - Morris Gleitzman
  82. What Happened to Goodbye - Sarah Dessen
  83. Ribbon of Darkness - Julie Coulter Bellon
  84. The Waves - Virginia Woolf
  85. 9/11: the world speaks – Tribute WTC Visitor Center
  86. Imaginary Girls - Nova Ren Suma
  87. Wifework - Susan Maushart
  88. The Master of Go - Yasunari Kawabata
  89. Escape from Bridezilla - Jacqueline DeMontravel
  90. The Edge of Sleep - David Wiltse
  91. Balzac and the Little Chinese Seamstress - Dai Sijie
  92. Dear Mr. Kawabata - Rashid Al-Daif
  93. Arlington Park - Rachel Cusk
  94. Miracle Child - Kayla Daniels
  95. Perfect - Ellen Hopkins
  96. Food Lovers’ Guide to Atlanta - Malika Harricharan (in-progress GPP manuscript, Fall 2011)
  97. The House on Mango Street - Jacqueline Cisneros
  98. Arizona: A Photographic Tribute - John Annerino (GPP, Fall 2011)
  99. New Mexico: A Photographic Tribute – John Annerino (GPP, Fall 2011)
  100. The Book of Lost Things - John Connolly
  101. Texas Icons - Donna Ingham (in-progress GPP manuscript, Spring 2012)
  102. The Thin Man - Dashiell Hammett
  103. Nerd in Shining Armor - Vicki Lewis Thompson
  104. Love Invents Us - Amy Bloom
  105. Tokyo Fiancée - Amélie Nothomb
  106. OyMG - Amy Fellner Dominy
  107. In Trouble - Ellen Levine
  108. Pure - Terra Elan McVoy
  109. Palm-of-the-Hand Stories - Yasunari Kawabata
  110. Lola and the Boy Next Door - Stephanie Perkins
  111. The Marriage Plot - Jeffrey Eugenides
  112. The Hottest Dishes of the Tartar Cuisine - Alina Bronsky
  113. Virtuosity - Jessica Martinez
  114. Anna and the French Kiss - Stephanie Perkins
  115. The Pale King - David Foster Wallace
  116. Double Dexter – Jeff Lindsay
  117. Audition - Stasia Ward Kehoe
  118. Crossed - Ally Condie
  119. Blood Red Road - Moira Young
  120. Infinite Jest - David Foster Wallace

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